Near-Death and Spiritually Transformative Experiences begin with synchronicity in most cases, the kind that just cannot be ignored. That is the first clue that you are being put on notice, if one is paying attention. It is the desire to connect more deeply to ‘reality’ that fuels the machinery of manifestation. If you listened to the audio intro, please be aware I like to play around even in the seriousness of the topic.
The areas of concern here include near-death experiences (NDEs), spiritually transformative experiences and other kinds of ‘contact’ that have been on the leading edge of conscious evolution, yet have found too much skepticism from traditional professionals. A huge area of service delivery remains open and unaddressed, let alone serviced.
I spoke at the International Association for Near Death Studies (IANDS) annual conference in 2010 about my introduction to the Light and beyond. It’s on YouTube if you care to search. I’ve written a number of books regarding the topics as well as earned two Master’s degrees in Business.
I’m not ashamed or reluctant to say I’ve been a contactee since childhood. In sharing I’ve suffered the normal incredulous comments, gazes and rejection of folks across the gamut of personal and professional realms. I’m actually quite outspoken because my experience is solid, including garnering the wisdom beyond the experiences. I can help you do the same. You can reach me by clicking here.
I’ve managed to have some fairly demanding jobs as well as earn two master’s degrees in business, which is not common among experiencers. I am a certified hypnotherapist and went on to earn certification as a transformational life coach as well. I’ve got the tools and I know how to use them to garner the best results for you.
I am a prolific writer, worked for various publications and have taught journalism to high school students. One of the best things I can offer to those on the quest for discovery of self is a workbook I created called “Cosmic Conundrum: Who am I?“
Over 40 years of contemplation and personal tools are included, along with journal prompts (gets you to examine your view) and some powerful exercises that help to move the mind beyond chaos.
Zen embraces psychological, scientific, intuitive and mystical explanations, offering practical exercises for meditation, releasing emotional blockages, mentorship, deepening the experience of “flow,” and more. Where relevant, Zen gives simple and effective definitions of spiritual terms for comprehension, and methodical processes for readers to achieve similar results with the suggested exercises. The author’s knowledge of mental-emotional transformational methodologies makes for well-explored and deeply penetrating lessons on the self-help topics.
As a conscious professional who bridges worlds often, such as facilitating multi-million dollar road and bridge construction partnering workshops (google ‘partnering facilitator’), teaching business plan writing to healing arts practitioners, producing and hosting television shows or running the operations for huge public events, I’ve proven an ‘experiencer’ can indeed find balance and productivity in the real world… even success. If I can, so can you. You might begin by reading ‘Creating Serendipity.‘
Now the terms abductee and contactee are used mainly in the ‘Ufology’ community while the near-death and spiritually transformative are used in more clinical environments, sometimes associated with the study of consciousness. Necromancy, mediumship or psychic readings fall into yet another category. They are all connected. Each has its inherent challenges with the ‘experiencer’ and expertise to help one find balance of any kind simply cannot come from anyone outside the direct experience of such events.
If you haven’t watched the IANDS presentation regarding these very elements of interconnectivity and the transcendence of consciousness, please do so. I mention abductees, contactees, near-death experiencers and spiritually transformative experiences. Tom Campbell also relates the expanded consciousness experiences in left-brain terms through My Big TOE and many interviews on YouTube.
Some help may be offered by traditional means, however the insights and intuition of a fellow ‘experiencer’ are priceless in the process. If you are open and willing, I can be a great asset. I’m available for groups, individuals by phone, Skype, Zoom and in person. If you live in the US and have a small group of folks that need help, my rates are very affordable. I’m a great facilitator for bridging worlds.
If you are here now, then you have a sense of being led to where you need to go and to whom you need to connect in order to advance in your own growth and understanding. Asking the bigger questions or even just better questions can lead to phenomenal breakthroughs. Curious for more? Reach out.
So why are you here right now? Can you see the breadcrumbs along the trail that guided you here? Just notice them for a moment and reflect on your awareness of the process. This is better than the Rabbit Hole and offers the opportunity to really Be Here Now.
The book Be Here Now was my first real ‘connection’ to another that made sense. The answer to the larger question (why am I here?) I can help with through transformational life coaching and personal gifts beyond the ‘normal’ coaching modalities.
I’ve worked with hundreds of folks over the years privately by ‘divine guidance’ (those who’ve just shown up and need help) and referrals from those who know my capability and concern for those who’ve opened up a can of worms they weren’t intending to open. Words won’t instill the trust one needs to share such intimate experiences, but at least they open the door to the possibilities that it could happen.
People need to have the opportunity to grow and understanding their own nature without feeling like they are an outcast or social misfit because their experience is so different than most of the general public. I’ve been down these roads already, an ongoing contactee since childhood, and have the trials and tribulations to prove it. You’ll find working with me provides a safety net you might not know exists yet.
Garnering the understanding of a larger perspective of life on planet earth is overwhelming to some, especially when they are among critics and skeptics that challenge one’s experiences. Responses to contact are as varied as the types of contact, but one thing remains consistent – we are controlled by our fears.
The journey we are on entails the exposure of confabulation (skewed memories) and obfuscation (purposely making things unclear). The universe within us and around us has no secrets… no demand of our allegiance… yet it demands our allegiance if we intend to be the change and example harmony among people and planet in our lifetimes.
Being authentic, caring and observant is a challenge in every moment, every thought and action. We often engage the circuitous defensive nature of the little self in our quest to be bigger, not realizing the Self (cosmically-attuned) is within reach and takes us to a much bigger playing field we were designed to engage.
When one shows up as an example of an attempt to epitomize a ‘belief system’ they are often stiff-armed in an attempt to remain comfortable in personal deception or ignorance. We learn who to trust over time. Those that resonate tend to experience ‘chance’ meetings or ‘coincidental’ moments that help alleviate the confusion.
Many experiencers find this kind of behavior [denial and rejection] far too often and need help dealing with the skepticism and the travails of living with the knowledge of a separate reality, or so many would have them believe. It’s sad to think that such behavior still happens in today’s world, but it does. I’m here to offer safety and solace. You can be who you are without feeling like you are under the microscope.
I think it is safe to say that there is an awareness of cosmic consciousness condensed into form.. us. Each one of us has the opportunity to recognize our Origin – and to acknowledge that place of Origin in each other. The workbook ‘Cosmic Conundrum – Who Am I?‘ is all about discovery and exploration.
Jesus has always played a huge role in my life. I used to sit in Sunday school class as a child and wonder how I could be more like him and I assumed everyone else did too. As I grew up, I was challenged by the trials and tribulations of the spiritual path in the discovery of the precepts of Christ Consciousness or better, Cosmic Consciousness. I know you will be challenged by reading further, but please don’t pray for my salvation. I’m already saved. 🙂
As I understand it from my years of inquiry Jesus was a messenger of a new way and proceeded to be an example, not a Savior. In fact, he taught personal responsibility not abdication, claiming instead that each of us is god just as he was, the Dead Sea Scrolls revealed this statement to Thomas. After the Council of Nicea, organized religion became a business of bridging church and state (emperor Constantine’s credit), and a lot of good intentioned people have been deceived into the fear, guilt and shame game.
In contrast, when I’ve shared my experiences I’ve often been rejected by the very folks that speak of such possibilities. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had Christians tell I’m full of Satan or under the influence of the Devil. Instead of not answering the door when Jehovah’s Witnesses or Seventh Day Adventists are out proselytizing, I love to engage them in conversation. I’m saddened by the focus on a book and dead words when the living word resides in their hearts and they continue to ignore it.
We all have moments that encourage us to continue, especially when we experience doubt and pain. Jesus helped me to rise out of some serious pain just after a divorce and maybe this sharing can help you too. Often we have a tendency to stiff-arm experiences that are beyond our current level of understanding. The belief and faith in a living being that transcended death was given awareness and direct experience of its truth on this day.
Now how you will feel or sense the following might give you some indication of just how open you are to divinely inspired spiritual events. Many profess to believe or have faith, but when faced with something outside their experience and/or demonstrable proof of a living presence today – the first response is denial and rejection. It appears to engage cognitive dissonance. There is a great mystery still, understanding how ‘God’ interacts with creation and humans specifically. If we knew it all there wouldn’t be any mystery for us to seek.
Doubt and skepticism are strong motivators in seeking knowledge, truth and/or wisdom. I had my own reservations about sharing my experience, let alone engaging it in the first place. I have a brilliant mind and voracious appetite for experience and knowledge, yet it all has to make sense from various perspectives or truth is still challenged to emerge in the light. We have our shadows, doubts and fears that our beliefs aren’t perfect or need to be challenged to make them come alive. I had to confront a number of internal conflicts I didn’t even know I had, just to be available to the experience.
I was invited to attend a spiritual retreat with a group of folks at Woods Canyon Lake, a pristine lake at about 6500 ft. elevation on the Mogollon Rim a little south of the Grand Canyon. I was glad to join them not knowing what to expect, but definitely looked forward to the cooler weather. It was still in the high 80ss, but it was much better than the hundred and teens we left in Phoenix. There were nine of us enjoying a weekend spiritual retreat led by Ed Cox, an associate of Ray Stanford and founder of the Association for the Unfoldment in Man. It had been planned for months. I was asked to go just a week prior as I had taken up residency in the house the group used for their meetings.
We stopped in Christopher Creek to unload our gear at the cabins that had been rented. Woods Canyon Lake was a few miles on up the road and we reached it just after noon. We found an area that was rather secluded, just off the end of the parking lot next to the lake. The lake itself covers 158 acres, so there is plenty of shoreline and secluded areas for privacy. We found an area with a fallen tree that was nearly 3 feet in diameter, a great bench looking over the water. The stump was clean and flat from the cut of the saw several years prior. We all sat down here.
The facilitator, Ed Cox (now on the other side), sat on a stump and the rest of the group (except me) was on the tree trunk which parallel to the shore of the lake. The group was able to look out at the lake from their positions. I sat cross-legged on a rock at the end of the log facing the facilitator with my back nearly to the lake (pic to right). There was a small inlet to my right that offered a view of the lake. There was a breeze wafting the smell of pine around as we enjoyed the cool mountain air in stark contrast to the heat of the Phoenix Valley. Being in this natural environment was really soothing.
As we got comfortable and began to engage our purpose for being there, Ed asked us to ‘act as if’ Jesus was in our presence. Interesting tactic, eh? I got excited instantly, feeling like He was always around whenever our thoughts ventured His way. However, inner turmoil surfaced immediately in most of the rest of the group. I could see it through their facial expressions. The silence was deafening for a bit. Several asked Ed how to speak to Him. I was amazed, dumbfounded and a bit shocked that none of the folks could bring themselves to a point of verbalization, let alone welcome Him into the surroundings. I sat there for a while just wondering how something this special could create such a chasm in one’s world.
I’m not one to wait for long, so after a few moments I could no longer hold back and blurted out, “Try this…. HEY DUDE, GLAD TO HAVE YOU HERE! LET’S PARTY!” Obviously a little over the top and, well, Ed didn’t care too much for it either. He grumbled a moment and I could tell he was a bit saddened that the ‘experiment’ didn’t produce better results. After a few moments of silence he suggested we prepare to do a guided meditation. He asked us to just close our eyes and take a few deep breaths to center and relax. It was so easy to just breathe and relax, allowing the quietness of the woods to envelope my senses. I had no idea what was about to happen.
I closed my eyes, took my first breath and instantly a vision unfolded. I was looking downward and saw two well-tanned hands come around from behind me at the level of my solar plexus. I felt like I could have touched them, they seemed so real. One held a piece of dark bread; the other grasped and ‘broke’ it. Before I had a chance to question the scene, instantly a brilliant light shone from above and just in front of me. With my eyes closed still, I looked up to see Jesus just meters away, a few meters off the ground. Every molecule in my being knew it was Him.
It seemed like time stood still as I observed Him. Before I could think to ask any questions two rays of light came from his forehead and heart, joining in front of me and bathing me in an iridescent and effervescent feeling that went to the depths of my soul. I would have been quite satisfied with just having that experience alone. I cannot describe how transcendent if felt, totally embraced by a loving sensation beyond anything I’d felt – except when I entered the Light as a teenager.
In the next moment He began speaking to me directly. “I would like to speak through you,” He said. Immediately the mental battle began to try and deny the experience because I was ‘unworthy.’ My mind echoed the words of my adoptive mother, a month prior, warning me about ‘channeling.’ Here was the ultimate connection, right in front of me. What could I do? How could I be sure? Everything in my being was telling me this was real beyond any doubt, yet I was overcome with it [doubt].
I broke down and cried like never before… feeling all the pain I had suffered from adoption, betrayal and divorce welling up from inside that cache of unhealed emotions we carry throughout our lives. I had never felt that depth of crying, like I was purging the very depths of my suffering. It was excruciating as my gut wrenched in this sensation. Then, as if by magic I felt it release. I chose to let go of my doubt and fear, sensing that this was one of the most important moments of my life and I better be fully present to experience it. I simply ‘had’ to let go of whatever was holding me back no matter what, as if my life depended on it.
After a few more sobs I took a few deep breaths and relaxed, opened my mouth and simply let go. It felt so weird, like I was leaping off a cliff not knowing I could fly. “Know that I AM with you always,” were the first words out of my mouth. Whew, that felt so great to hear. After a pause Jesus/I continued, “This one’s fear is great (I felt he was speaking of me).” I took issue, began to question him and felt a pleasant whoosh as we left the current scene and went to a place where He and I talked for a while, free of the rest of the group. I was still delivering a message, but didn’t need to be there to hear it evidently. I think quantum science guys would call this ‘non-local’ awareness or consciousness.
I was totally unaware of my body as we talked. This may sound really odd, but he told me our fears were the same – of not fulfilling our Divine Mission. That is why my fear was great. I was his brother, from the same Creators. I was dumbfounded and knew this was news I could not share with anyone – especially after seeing the group behavior in a secluded environment away from judgment or persecution. It was amazing at how fast my mind was taking all this in. As if he were inside my head and a very real part of me. As soon as I became aware I was thinking about my mind and its perturbations, he chimed in with an explanation of his own battle – what we’ve chronicled as a 40-day and night battle with Satan.
First, He told me that my understanding of where the name [Satan] came from was correct, the Greek ‘thetan’ – meaning ‘thinker.’ I found that out years ago when I was researching Biblical references and their Aramaic, Greek and Hebrew roots. It sounded so easily manipulated into the current name that no one challenged the change. Of course in Constantine’s time any questions were met with swift annihilation. Humans were steeped in ‘duality’ from superstitions developed about day and night long ago. They [superstitions] were carried forward in the consciousness of mankind and used by those who wanted to have dominance over populations. He knew he had to address those and found himself in the desert, battling his own thoughts about ‘common knowledge’ and the ‘truth.’ He relayed that there is no ‘devil’ except in the minds of humanity.
He showed me some video vignettes (as best as I can describe) that highlighted some of the stories that we’ve been led to misunderstand throughout history. He confirmed much of what I’d questioned based on my own discovery after entering the Light and returning myself. I felt like I was on fire inside, like I was being consumed by this data dump of divinity. He showed me a few scenes about my own life as well, where I had trusted my gut in differing from the common knowledge, no matter how I was viewed as a result. He noted I had kept true to myself even at the risk of rejection. He went on to share examples of letting go and trusting in All That Is, feeling the LOVE, the limitless oscillating vibrational energy, all around us. Love frees the mind to join with the heart as ONE. So simple, yet so profoundly challenging.
So my experience was an internal conversation with Jesus, smattered with videobackground (we can also call them ‘visions’), about some very important issues to me: authentic deep conversations and fear of failing ‘my mission’ here on Earth primarily. Jesus shared that our fears were the same and that to anchor in the feeling of LOVE, limitless oscillating vibrational energy, fends off all fear. I simply needed to ‘let go’ and trust…just trust and allow. I saw several examples during the process; short ‘visions’ of how things had already done so. It took me back to the ‘white light’ experience I had as a teenager, bouncing back and forth in my consciousness in this present moment. There was a sense of completion and I paused in my thoughts.
Next thing I knew, I was aware there were branches snapping and I was hearing the sounds of my immediate environment in the woods once again. I didn’t know where I had been, but I was definitely returning from somewhere else. I sat with eyes closed for a moment longer, absorbing all that just happened with the utmost humility and reverence. I opened my eyes to see the others staring at me with gaping mouths. I looked over to see a couple of hikers coming our way, which is where the sound of breaking branches no doubt came. I don’t know what was said to this day. I know what I experienced and heard. Others said they saw him as he first appeared and ‘shined the light’ on me, too. Wow, what a trip…
I didn’t have the desire to speak for several hours afterward. When asked a question or someone tried to engage me, all I could do was utter a ‘mmmmmmm’ sound as I was still feeling the feeling of total love and union. The meditation produced very profound things, bringing us all to a new understanding of what Jesus meant by, “Know that I Am with you always.” Indeed, He took me by the hand and led me toward the promised land. I am so blessed to have had that experience and to feel the presence of knowledge and wisdom beyond our human frailties.
The prevailing feeling was that Jesus was REALLY THERE! The entire group sensed His presence and some even swore they saw Him. Imagine what it would be like to have that opportunity? We do. We have it every moment that we choose to focus our attention on our Elder Brother. From what I gathered, He had a similar discourse with the group regarding the ability we each have of letting go of our doubts and fears. He did make a distinction that religion has no hold on truth. Every human being has the potential of rising into conscious communion with the Divine. There is no ‘saving’ of an individual or human race by his sacrifice. We each are responsible for our actions and accountable to All That Is for our choices.
What I got from the experience was a sense of utter surrender to All That Is, to God, to the Cosmos, to that limitless oscillating vibrational energy which we all are now, have always been and will continue to be. That feeling of connection to everything as ‘love’ is so very challenging to articulate, so we usually just bliss out. In our daily walk we have to balance the bliss with the checkbook, kids, school, spouse and work usually. It is often a challenge to leave our worries behind. I am still challenged daily to live in the faith and trust that each step can be defined from within the Kingdom. I am no one special, but it is my opinion that we, as a human race, need to move beyond the stranglehold our religious leaders have upon us now. We need to put the books down and raise our eyes to meet one another as relatives on Earth as one family.
Paul wrote about the “peace that surpasseth understanding.” “Shanti” is the ancient Sanskrit word for the “Peace which surpasseth understanding.” Imagine having it all the time. Jesus message, for me, was that it is available all the time as “I Am with you always.” I must make it clear that He was not about professing that ‘Christianity’ was somehow above the other religions. Quite the contrary. Religion has served to separate mankind. It is NOT what consciousness, albeit cosmic, brings to our awareness. Indeed, there is ONE Creation, but no one religion presents that we are all part of God – everyone.
The only thing that keeps us separate is our beliefs, which are false in that regard. Anything or anyone that professes that separation is any part of God whatsoever is a False Prophet. We are One People on One Planet… period. Jesus and all those like him, of which there have been many, have attempted to get this point across to humanity from an inner perspective… the WORD is written in our hearts. We choose to allow others control and dominance over our lives… and we have been choosing in error.
The BEAST is our MIND… Our bodies are all carbon-based (6 protons, 6 neutrons and 6 electrons) so materially, physically – we are all the same! “It is a number of knowledge and wisdom (science). Let he who hath understanding interpret the number. It is the number of man. That number being 666.” You can argue the point all you want. If you consider the concept of ‘we are all sons and daughters’ then from a perspective of ONEness, one creation if you will, it just makes sense that this kind of obvious simplicity is hidden in our very biological nature.
It is not surprising that the information I’ve garnered from contactee experiences throughout my life echoes the very same notions that Jesus presented to me that day. We are all relatives, a part of the Earth Family, and able to rise in our consciousness to the knowledge, wisdom and , above all, experience of our connection with All That Is. The ‘new’ living awareness will lead us toward a new world order of harmony among people and planet in our lifetime.
In response to the confusion of transparency and the notion that the world is ‘just that way’ in how it seems to devalue others… I hear what you’re saying and let’s not get real or be honest is what it seems you are trying to convince yourself is okay. Let’s hide and not be free to be trusting or vulnerable with who we are and not care what others think.
It doesn’t mean you blurt it out without provocation. It does mean that when you are asked a question that you reveal without fear of reprisal or restriction. It means that when you feel the subtle movement to speak that you do, but not from a place that is marginalized. That’s a mental construct that constricts the ability of heart-centered communication to be fully present in any situation.
Perhaps the ridiculous and naive is closer to innocence and naivety as a present action that allows the refreshing and unexpected to happen. It cannot happen when you hold back for fear of whatever excuses you might think is appropriate in the moment. I understand that the world often operates differently, but if we don’t the world won’t change. We are the change. It’s risky business… “People are dumb, panicky, dangerous animals and you know it.”
In reality, I live this… or at least the best I can. It hasn’t been easy by any stretch of the imagination. It’s been worth every challenge and change, every moment of confronting fears and transcending to some new level of awareness. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, yet I wouldn’t change it for the world. It’s how we change the world… we risk letting go and engage deeper levels of faith, love and trust. 🙂
During this season we are particularly attuned to the attitude of gratitude toward the people, places and things in our lives. We set aside our thoughts and feelings of what is wrong with our lives and the world for just a moment in time. It allows us to invite a spirit of family and togetherness beyond our normal daily routines.
In my coaching practice I encounter a consistent mindset that focuses on what is not wanted. Folks are dismayed by the events and people in their lives that seem to reflect these undesirable situations on a continual basis.
We often shift this focus, through mindful practice, to that of an attitude of gratitude for those desirable situations that are always present, too.
What does that do for the beneficial evolution of one’s life and/or perspective?
Consider the notions presented by much of the material over the last decade or so regarding the nature of how we attract what we think and feel strongly. Some refer to this as the Law of Attraction, but the concept and philosophy has been around for centuries under different labels. Just take a moment and reflect, if you would, on how your life has been very different when you experience situations that edify your humanity, your good will and those who example that toward and with you and others.
What did you discover?
Your world of personal and professional relationships is full of desirable and undesirable situations, right? If you could determine a ratio of desirable to undesirable situations, what might it be? Are you satisfied with that? Is it possible to change that ration for the better? Do you want to? When?
Imagine the results of changing your perception just slightly. It’s hard to shift your emotions, how you feel, when the situations have emotional triggers that take you out of the sense of continuity or flow, right? Sometimes we have moments of just observing the situation for what it is, completely removed from our personal emotional state and/or view of the reasons for it happening. That is a very powerful position and full of possibility. Possibility of what?, you might ask.
We can grow in compassion and understanding when we are able to disengage our own emotions and our attachment to the outcome of the situation. It is what it is and it will resolve according to the emotions and perceptions of those in it. Does that make sense? We’ve heard about the notion that when you change your view, your perception, the world changes automatically.
Imagine what an attitude of gratitude for the challenges we face can do for changing perspectives. It frees us from the emotional turmoil often associated with undesirable results. It also allows us to refocus on desirable outcomes and work toward them instead. A lack of communication is often the culprit as well.
Too often we engage situations with unspoken and unfulfilled expectations that affect our internal engine, so to speak. Instead of running efficiently we choke and sputter because our supply of fuel is diminished. So it is with communication. We are often hindered by our fear of rejection or resistance, so we remain quiet and then walk away feeling emotionally damaged. How does that help?
One simple thing can make all the difference in the world. It may feel scary at worst, but at least uncomfortable, yet we simply must open our mouths and say what is on our mind and/or heart. It might stir others and cause a disruption in the perceived flow of the situation, but the result will take the outcome to a new height in relation-ship building. In effect, you’ve just created another level of transparency.
What happens when people know more about each other and the situation at hand? Can they deal with it more effectively? Does it offer opportunity for achievement beyond the previous constraints? I would venture to say that, in nearly all situations, there is a sense of gratitude that things were spoken that everyone was feeling but no one was willing to offer for discussion.
So, in conclusion I would like to offer and even suggest that when you feel tension in a situation rather than allow it to continue, you might engage an attitude of gratitude for the opportunity to help make things better for everyone. Beyond the resistance or turmoil it may create, temporarily, you’ll garner a deeper respect for yourself and from others. Remember.. Your attitude determines your altitude.
Thanks for letting me in today. Have a Happy Thanksgiving!
another view of the Higgs-boson, formerly known as the GOD Particle.
The GOD Participle? What the heck is that? I’ll get to that in a moment, but I want to keep you guessing for now. Meanwhile, I’d like to take a look at the infamous ‘GOD Particle’… Higgs-boson as it is known. I’m asking you to join me in an exploration of another perspective of possibility that is perhaps way outside the box.
First of all, let’s look at what the Higgs-boson is reported to represent. Let’s look at a few definitions from across the web. From the Free Dictionary:
Here’s another interesting take from the Science – How It Works site:
Can’t matter just inherently have mass without the Higgs-boson confusing things? Not according to the standard model. But physicists have found a solution. What if all particles have no inherent mass, but instead gain mass by passing through a field? This field, known as a Higgs field, could affect different particles in different ways. Photons could slide through unaffected, while W and Z bosons would get bogged down with mass. In fact, assuming the Higgs-boson exists, everything that has mass gets it by interacting with the all-powerful Higgs field, which occupies the entire universe. Like the other fields covered by the standard model, the Higgs one would need a carrier particle to affect other particles, and that particle is known as the Higgs boson.
Now, that might give you at least a partial working knowledge of what the excitement is all about for the ‘discovery’ of the particle. Here’s the really interesting twist, though… There was no particle, but the ‘decay’ of which was determined to reveal the existence of the particle even though it was never ‘seen.’ I personally find the whole quantum physics perspective a little far-fetched. Science is supposed to be about hard facts and repeatable results. I’m fairly intelligent and it’s hard for me to wrap my head around a field yielding a particle that transmits mass.
It reminds me of the discoveries at Los Alamos that revealed the scientists observing experiments actually had an effect on them. So thought seems to affect the process, but doesn’t necessarily carry mass with it, unless it’s just baggage from a belief system. 🙂 At any rate, it just seems counter-intuitive that matter or mass is transferred via some theoretical particle. Furthermore, it would seem even more preposterous that an explosion would produce any such particle.
That explosion was the result of ramming two protons together at near-light speed. These ‘hadrons’ theoretically fuse together when collided and form another even smaller particle, a remnant. It’s like slamming two oranges together at breakneck speeds and having a fused seed as a result. That really makes a lot of sense, doesn’t it? Perhaps it does. With all the technical jargon and mathematical equations, the analogy gets lost in the intellectual vocabulary that only scientists supposedly understand.
Okay, so now that we’ve made some progress regarding the ‘understanding’ of the Higgs-boson perhaps there is another explanation or even discovery that has gone unnoticed by the scientific community. It would seem that the lenses from which they are looking might be a little skewed or undervalued by ‘what’ they are look for instead of acknowledging what is really being ‘seen’ from simple observation. The discovery is just as magnificent, but may come as quite a surprise if they are willing to look.
Of course I could be totally wrong, but I think the logic will hold up at least for the purpose of sharing another possibility. Let’s start with just the observation of the explosion. It is at a sub-atomic level. In the electromagnetic spectrum and according to M-Theory, there are multiple dimensions or layers of ‘reality’ as one might perceive. The notion seems to be consistent with all the layers of bandwidth and understanding of the various frequencies that have been associated with different types of ‘rays’ whether from a scientific point of view or from an ‘ascended master’ POV. The latter involved varies ‘rays’ of consciousness instead of electromagnetic notations. Both probably describe the same thing.
So, this explosion then may produce a rip in the fabric between said ‘dimensions’ or ‘rays’ that is observable as the ‘decay’ of the particle in question rather than indicating an actual particle. The ‘decay’ is perhaps the reverse or ‘repair’ of the rip instead. Rather than proving the ‘particle’ theory it may indeed prove that M-Theory is indeed true and yet unseen in this example because the eyes that were looking had a different spectacle in mind. Like I said, it may not be true. However, I think it at least is worthy of some further consideration.
Alright, I mentioned the GOD Participle earlier in reference to the discovery. (I just have to share that there has been an appearance of a hummingbird several times outside my window as I’ve been writing this, peering in on me as it were. I have not noticed such an appearance to date.) What is the GOD Participle? If you are an educator, especially an English teacher, then you’ll remember the definition of a participle:
a word formed from a verb (e.g., going, gone, being, been ) and used as an adjective (e.g., working woman, burned toast ) or a noun (e.g., good breeding ). In English, participles are also used to make compound verb forms (e.g., is going, has been ).
The definition gives away the answer. It’s quite simply the most elegant word in the English language, too. In order to observe the process of how I came up with the perspective that allowed me to present an alternative view of the Higgs-boson notion I had to be in a particular place. In the presentation of this place across a plethora of fields it is simply known as…. BEING. That is the GOD Participle. Perhaps you can explore it further on your own. I’ll be writing about it more in an upcoming book by the same title.
Like the separation of people that religion promotes, scientific perspectives are no different. It would be amazing to witness great minds step back and consider the possibilities their discoveries may indeed provide for mankind’s evolution toward harmony among people and planet. Thanks allowing me to rent space in your head for bit. I hope you found value in the duration of our shared space.
Communication is the number one issue across the board in relationships – personal or professional. We talk at each other instead of with each other. We avoid addressing the things that make us uncomfortable. Even worse, we run from conversations that make us feel vulnerable.
Given our lack of coping skills and avoidance techniques that range in the thousands, how to do overcome what keeps us afraid, angry, ignorant and immobile?
It isn’t like the subject hasn’t been address by those far greater prepared and the expertise, imho, spans several areas for drawing solutions. Daniel Goleman speaks of emotional intelligence. Howard Gardner address multiple intelligences and Peter Senge touts the learning organization and systems thinking to get things rolling in the right direction. There are many others that could be included as well. We tend to compartmentalize and segment our approaches when perhaps a holistic approach is what we really need.
Some years ago after giving the corporate ladder and my marriage the best I could possibly offer (or so I thought) and having both worlds crumble, I spent a year in self-examination and analysis with the help of a number of folks qualified beyond measure to assist. I love to go deep and knowing self is tantamount to understanding others, or so the story goes.
As I explored the depths, the same notion kept coming up…. just talk. Okay… How? Of course communication doesn’t happen by just talking; it happens from how we talk but more so how we listen. Communication is a symbiosis of gesticulation, words and understanding.
During that year I went from approaching $60K to less than $6K in income and the attending self-deprecating thoughts and feelings one experiences from lack of opportunity and/or performance. My life was in shambles and I let my family down. That sounds terrible, and it felt that way. I have to say it was also one of the best years of my life. I was able to get really quiet, listen and observe my feelings and thoughts.
I found an oasis in the desert, literally, and began to restore my life. Living in Phoenix seemed only too appropriate since I was living the legend. I also found a lot of unanswered questions about building relationships and, more importantly, finding fulfillment. My first attempts were devastating, mostly through no fault of my own. My own innocence and naivety of human nature brought the house down. So I had to rebuild and remodel with new material.
Then I got a break. I had the opportunity to produce a television show. I had gotten involved with the Christown Lions Club and a public access program they sponsored. When the time came, the opportunity literally fell in my lap without saying a word. I treated it with the honor and respect I felt it deserved and although I was asked to do a kind of ‘new age’ show I opted for staying more mainstream. I’d had a bad experience on the radio with a ‘new age’ event I helped produce and I didn’t think it wise to set myself up for more uninformed public trials and tribulations.
One World became an avenue to explore how we integrate inner and outer realities, work through common fears and learn how to communicate effectively across the gamut of relationships. It was an education of many lifetimes with over 100 shows over about two years, done live to tape and no post production. I was scared of making mistakes initially, but gradually loosened up. It’s actually where ‘Zen’ began to emerge. About a half-dozen shows in the crew started calling me Zen. It came from the ‘subtitle’ of Zendor that I was using as a tongue-in-cheek ‘door to what is’ reference. The latter is a story for another time.
In the process of production, I met a gentleman who had founded a homeless transitional facility called New Day Educational Center. I had interviewed him and a graduate about their divergent yet serendipitous engagement. A few months later he approached me with an opportunity to do a commercial show on community activism and, even though it meant giving up the public access show, I jumped at the chance. I thought I could begin to generate conversations that could help Phoenicians connect and build better communities of practice and service.
Obviously it was still quite the amateur approach, but I still like the intro to the promotional video we produced. It carries a message even today.
Sensitivity to everything around you can cause you to feel like you are on a precipice, approaching the edge, ready to jump and fall or fly at any moment. This sensitivity is much more than just being psychic, it touches the very fiber of our core being. Sensitives of this sort often feel like they are a live wire with current flowing profusely. More succinctly – hyper-sensitivity of the sensory array.
Once on that precipice, however it is achieved, life changes drastically. One cannot really say for sure just what will happen once we step off into the unknown. We begin to ask questions that are begging to be asked out loud. You’ve got an idea of what is happening from the inside, but you have no idea if others around you are on the same page as you. In most cases, they aren’t. Deeply sensitive people aren’t as rare as you think. They hide really well, too.
My senses got blown open in college when my mind was so open it acted like a sieve, but with really good data mining from the flow through. I seriously thought I was going nuts until a friend had me shut up and listen really closely to the sound of the voices. They weren’t mine, but I had perceived they were in an all-out-attack on me because of hearing the “You….” preface the massively self-deprecating messages. I thought it was all about ‘me.’ That’s the kind of attention that makes one lock themselves in their dorm room and not come out for a while.
Over the years the sensitivity has become manageable, although sometimes the noise get a little annoying when I’m around people who have a lot of cognitive dissonance. They can be perfectly gracious and well-intentioned, but the sensation they exude is one of rapid vacillation and it’s a buzz I could personally do without. I have enough of my own challenges, thank you. My thoughtmospheric activity is already overwhelmingly complex, even in the simplicity of mindfulness. It still feels like I’m standing on a precipice when I engage others in conversation. I have a penchant for exposing bad habits and it always happens whether I like it or not. It’s how I’m wired… or wirelessed.
Those conversations spiral around the notion of being able to magnetize the thoughtmosphere toward passion with purposeful mission and have it resolve as the path revealed. We all would simply LOVE that to happen. When it does, though, the overwhelming majority of folks run for cover. The idea that things can be connected is one thing. When everything around one begins to show signs of a huge mirror, embracing them from all directions, it is a huge shock to the ego and fear-based life preceding that moment. When a ‘moment’ of complete connectedness is experienced and shared both verbally and viscerally, then there is cause for celebration. Celebration occurs for another ‘moment’ and then things move on. We don’t linger.
I’m always looking for ways to say more with less. I’m rather verbose, so that is an extreme challenge. However, in thinking about what is being shared in my particular areas of interest (consciousness & harmony among people and planet) I find the majority of focus is on the research and study of outdated practices and theories and the current ‘theme of the day’ takes precedence over direct experience and experimentation. If we are going to move forward we need to be experimenting with the abilities, skills and talents that are developing amongst us all.
I have done my fair share of research and study over the years. Heck, I’ve got two Master’s degrees and nearly a dozen books on various topics. Going into the litany of accomplishments any more would be boastful. I have to say that without the research and study we’d be bereft of understanding what has come before us. We’re in drastic times now as our people and planet are in peril. We cannot even get along yet, so restoring our eco-system is like an ad hoc system with poor interfacing at best. That is a much bigger issue, though. I’m looking at what is right in front of us, someone else. Face to face communication and experiential training is how the old guys and gals did it. I think we can do it through multi-media and the thoughtmosphere now. Ah, but what is ‘it?’
I like to share from direct experience, though, and engage others to create a conversation that blends our energy and perhaps may offer further evidence of just how connected we really are on multiple levels. Multiple levels span artistry to telepathy and wind through chemistry and quantum science along the way. How would that really look and feel? That can be pretty unsettling to some, especially if they aren’t used to feeling so connected. The symptoms of a paranoid schizophrenic could manifest easily. At least that is what the DSM V would have you believe.
In reality, it is the highly sensitive person who often cannot distinguish between the real and the imagined. If the onset of telepathic experiences isn’t recognized, the experiencer is challenged by even the most basic of choices. In close proximity, the open minded are hit with an onslaught of unhealthy habits. Those habits are the self-deprecating thoughts we carry with reckless abandonment. Our thoughts are unmonitored, let alone uncontrolled. Sensitive telepaths unaware of their ability become fearful and mistrust their intuition and presentation of the most healthy opportunities. They cannot let go and risk feeling out of control, so their actions seem counter-intuitive.
Now, back to ‘it’ for a moment. What do you think ‘it’ might be? I’m not sure ‘it’ can truly be defined in words on a page, but in the moment of experiencing it feels like being embraced by the universe. It feels like everything just clicks in or locks in to a moment of feeling completely connected. Maybe you’ve never had that feeling. I hope you have, because that sensation, however momentary it may be, gives us the courage to face our insurmountable odds with persistence and a positive attitude.
I just finished another book, expanding on some work already completed. It’s about the beginning of my sensitivity and how it came… Near-Death of a Different Sort.
Let’s face it. We all have dreams. We all have goals. Are they congruent? Does our inner life reflect in our outer life? Do we show up authentically or do we make believe and work toward something that mocks our dreams instead?
We’ve heard that goals are dreams with deadlines, but are they?
Over the years in both my personal and professional lives I’ve found that folks don’t seem to follow their dreams. Why is that? We can identify all sorts of reasons, but what are the simple and most profound ones? Could it be that we don’t feel worthy? Could it be that we really don’t believe they are possible? Could it be that we have conflicting belief systems that cause us to self-sabotage or refuse to open the door when an opportunity knocks?
Worse yet, do we run away when what we’ve asked for shows up in our reality?
The latter seems to be the most recognizable for me. I’ve been fortunate, even blessed, to have had so many opportunities to perform on a variety of stages in life. I’ve been scared to death of failing and yet risen to the occasion in spite of those fears. I’ve learned the fear is also a door. On the other side of it are phenomenal rewards. People are used to having their dreams and hopes dashed and fall into the rut of ‘if it’s too good to be true it probably is.’ How destructive that is when the exact opposite is the fulfillment of our dreams. If part of us is in denial of the possibility, then how can the other part of us perform at peak levels?
How do we translate our dreams to reality?
I watched myself go through these stages, from fear to joy to despair when others have shown up in my life with similar if not the same dreams and goals only to snap back into some fear-laden rhetoric inside their heads and disappear into the shadows as a result. It seems many run from fulfillment and joy. Why? Many books have been written on that subject.
It wasn’t until my mid-40s that I uncovered a cognitively dissonant belief I held that was causing those same patterns… risk, reward and release. I’d risk being vulnerable and step up to the plate, hit a double and knock a couple of runs in and then get stuck on base. Home was something I only saw from a distance. I realized that the emotional pattern had been set up deeply when I was orphaned at birth, but never realized how destructive it was until I took a really hard look in the mirror with the question of ‘Why?’ in regards to continued false starts and short-term relationships.
So, I began wondering if the same pattern was also part of the thoughtmospheric conditions in others; “I have a lot to offer, but you are going to reject me.” It seems we show up full of vim, vigor and vulnerability, but we have this inner self-deprecation that takes place as far as being worthy of the rewards that we sorely appreciate and even suffer to attain. There’s this internal dialog that tells us it isn’t going to work or it’s too much of a leap of faith to let go of where we are to have what we desire. We can’t let go of the past in order to move into the future… and it happens in the moment. We butt-pucker and yank the reigns hard.
The same pattern happens all over our lives, in our relationships both personally and professionally. We carry around unspoken and unfulfilled expectations that we never talk about and wonder why they are never addressed. Speaking up feels like being too vulnerable and we’d surely be rejected if people knew the insanity going on inside our heads, but we let it continue. We don’t communicate, except to the committee in our head. It’s no wonder we’ve got a nation (world) of addicts and self-medicators, numbing themselves out to the very things that offer freedom and, ultimately, JOY.
Transform Your Life
So perhaps translating our dreams to reality might involve help from both inside and outside sources. Transformational life coaching is one of the resources that is gaining popularity, although it still vastly underutilized. Of course many get ‘certification’ because they are still working on themselves but feel it’s their calling to help others. Those shingles belong on a roof and not on a door or wall, imho.
Finding someone with credentials that offer evidence of mastery internally and externally is often a challenge, but they are out there. Changing your life means changing the way you think, first of all. Find someone that challenges how you think and invites you to think differently. Your life will transform as a result, but it won’t happen over night.
That sure is a tall order for the average person in today’s world. It’s nearly impossible to stand undisturbed in the emotional tsunami that surrounds us everywhere we go. We’re pushed and pulled in every direction while we navigate the travails of our daily activities on the ocean of emotion.
It surely is a challenge to keep our sanity with so much turmoil in our world. The insanity of how humans treat humans seems almost impossible to change. Liabilities, limitations and excuses keep us from making the simple choices to clean up our thinking, affecting our behavior. Calmness comes from clarity; vision with an emptiness of desire or prejudice.
We seek to create the life we want to live. The frustrations mount when we don’t see immediate results. We hope and pray that we’re doing the right things as we wait for the signs to reflect. We strive to calm the inner dialog that seems to run rampant in times of high stress. The chaos to order scenario is hardly a notion that calms us in the depths of an emotional quagmire. Yet it can happen. We CAN be quiet.
Stilling the mind in the midst of the mayhem, perturbations plaguing the peace within, is simpler than we may think. In fact, our thoughts are so available to observe that once we begin to do so, changes happen automatically. Expecting to completely overhaul our thoughtmosphere in a short time is rather silly. It took a long time to get here. Relax, enjoy the journey back to center and make fun of yourself whenever possible. It helps to release the grip of the pattern.
You will be surprised how, completely unannounced, amazing things begin to show up. First, sporadically and then with more regularity as you come back to center more often. It’s important to breathe deeply when you have a moment, reminding you to relax and let go. Just when you are least expecting it…. something or someone will enter your world to make it all worthwhile.
It happened to me just the other day. The heavens opened and ‘coincidence’ caught up with ‘providence.’ It was quite obvious upon review. The day started with an invitation to a spiritual discussion group at a local Baha’i center. The discussion was about ‘family’ and the virtues that strong family values empower. I’ve got a wonderful extended family, but no one as a partner in life. Afterward, some friends and I decided to meet at a Barnes & Noble to catch up on life and share recent successes.
We met in the cafe’ at Barnes & Noble and had quite a wonderful conversation about the recent events in all our lives. A woman was sitting near us and I noticed she was reading The Scarlet Letter. I made a flippant comment about not seeing anyone read the book in a long time. My friends engaged her as well and, realizing that there was an ease of communication and natural affinity developing, invited her to join us.
Over the course of the next few hours evidence began to arise that this ‘chance’ meeting wasn’t so coincidental. A conversation took us into deeper and deeper recognition that our meeting was destined to move us both into a better position for fulfilling our dreams and goals. Perhaps those details will benefit many in the next few years. The trials and tribulations that produced the opportunity to discover the process to calmness produced a life-altering connection.
I’m grateful for all that has gotten me here now. More later…
Perhaps the title of this article might stimulate some visuals of dusting off the bookshelves while trying to figure out how to manage your career change and/or social schedule. One of my mentors used to talk about cleaning out the ashtrays, even though he wasn’t a smoker. Sometimes we just need to clean up our lives a bit and challenge the future in the process.
I had to make a change recently, not feeling completely comfortable and in flow with the process, in order to fulfill and agreement I’d made with my life partner of the past decade or so. A door opened for the moment and, although it didn’t feel like it was going to last long, I made the move. Wow, did I get a wake-up call in short order.
Being responsible for creating everything in your life is a tall order. Sometimes what we create forcibly turns around to give us a real clear vision of our cognitive dissonance. Even when agreements are made and contracts signed, that doesn’t mean that the performance of the parties will be congruent with the stated mission and purpose of the alignment. What I mean by that is people aren’t always honest, but show up as they are over time for all to see.
I tend to look at my immediate environment and extrapolate the cosmic significance in order to understand the bigger picture of how people play (or not) and what it really means to create harmony among people. People often say they want balance and harmony, but how they show up in life simply prohibits it and they tend to blame everyone around them instead of looking in the mirror. I got a harsh look in the mirror that offered still deeper levels of an old pattern I uncovered a decade ago. I’ve been working through it and am still challenged by it evidently.
Changing beliefs is easy, or so we think. Somehow, though, my nemesis showed up once again… “I have a lot to offer, but you will reject me.” Do you have something like that rolling around in your head and/or heart? I know where it came from – being orphaned. As an adoptee I found my search for depth in life was far more important than anything else. It still is and I’m not triggered by behaviors of others, but so many are still. The first sign is when others project their opinions like, “You think your are better than… ” It sucks when people do that and nothing anyone can say will change that belief. It’s locked and loaded.
The whole concept of feeling like one needs to help others to heal usually comes from a deeply wounded individual that hasn’t found their own healing yet. The old adage of ‘we teach what we need to learn’ certainly applies if we are listening. The thing is it takes deep listening or gazing in the mirror to see yourself in that way. Most folks tend to reject that view and act out aggressively. It’s sad to see it happen, even heart-wrenching when you are in the middle of it. It’s even more disappointing when you’ve made every attempt to be the change you with to see and it just ain’t happenin’ around you.
So how do we show up? Are we really authentic or do we have layers and layers of masks that we use to hide from the truth? Do we honor others or usurp their power for our own purpose and steal their energy and resources with no respect offered? Do we give with no expectation of return or do we play the invisible reach around with a hidden agenda that is obvious to others but oblivious to our own sight? Do we play the victim card or do we acknowledge the choice we made to be out of integrity?
We all have our agendas and reasons for behaving certain ways. I certainly stepped out of bounds and held back in expressing my own needs in order to fulfill the needs of another. Sometimes that is the best and most gracious way to be in life. However there is a balance, a harmony of self and others that we often find challenging. We rarely communicate our true feelings, let alone ask for feedback from others about how we appear to show up in our relationships.
If we are unable to do that in our personal relationships, those that are closest and most sacred, then how can we expect to show up in a professional environment any differently? I think it was T. Harv Eker that said, “What you do anywhere, you do everywhere.” I think about that a lot. I review my authenticity, my intentions and my reflections as though my life depends on it. If I show up anywhere out of sync, then I probably show up everywhere out of sync. What do you think about that for your own life?
There is a lot of discussion about being able to anticipate the needs of our future business, social and technological needs. Analyzing trends is big business, but it still relies on historical values… past events. Yes, it is recent past in our current trending reviews, but still the past. It is my opinion that, looking through new eyes with the review of how we show up and the reflections we get, we have an obligation to create a future that is harvesting the past while engaging a rapid growth cycle. That growth comes from authentic and effective communication at all levels of our lives. That is how we can “Be the change we wish to see.”
I was reminded of an experience in Las Vegas almost 20 years ago now, at a weekend workshop called ‘Vision.’ Of course it was about self-development and creating alignment with purpose, people, places and things in our life.
The last day we (180 or so) were thrust into a ballroom with the edict of ‘creating a miracle.’ The miracle happened when the partner (for the seminar) of one of guys put a rose in a vase in the center of the room, unbeknownst to him at the time. Shortly later he arose from a meditation on the side of the room, walked over to the rose and sat with it, cross legged.
Before too long he was weeping uncontrollably. Many came to his aide and attempted to ‘make it okay,’ desiring to pull him out of the seeming funk. He responded with, “No, you don’t understand… you don’t understand.” After several minutes the entire group, again unbeknownst to him, had surrounded him, with arms outstretched and embracing one another as he continue to weep completely oblivious of his surroundings. Then he stopped.
Through tear-soaked and swollen eyes he looked up at the group around him now, all 180+ in a huge group hug…. simply loving in the silence of the embrace. He smiled and arose, wobbly from the outpouring. Someone asked him what happened. He said it was like the rose was a connection to the Earth and all the sorrow came pouring through it and into him.
It evidently began to subside as the group gathered around him, first wanting to push or pull him into a different place instead of allowing him to just BE in that moment. When they finally did just allow and embraced each other in a loving ‘unknowing’ the energy shifted and the sorrow subsided. The miracle had occurred.
In his statements about the experience he expressed the deep sorrow he felt from the rose vis a vis the planet and her deep despair regarding our treatment of each other and her simultaneously. It was nearly unbearable as he noted the words he spoke to those who, early on, attempted to get him to come out of that obvious despair, not knowing truly what it was. His response of, “No, you don’t understand!” came from deep within that consciousness that was being shared with him through the rose.
Ultimately they all at least got the message of our inhumane treatment of each other and the planet and at least for a brief moment in time they had all released any and all bias, judgment, prejudice or whatever… and breathed in and out together in a an embrace of unconditional love. It was truly magnificent to witness, this breath of oneness.
Just in case you haven’t experienced a breathing as one event… try Do As One.