Robin and I were having a conversation about life and our transition this morning.
Since our break up over a year ago, we’ve had some wonderful discussions about energy and soular paths and choices to change the plot amidst our story. Our solid relationship as friends allows us the freedom to continue to explore the depths of reality. The awareness of the choice to change the story happened many years ago when she felt the ‘fantasy’ of our life together just didn’t work for her.
Let me back up for a moment and explain how I interpreted her entrance into my life. I was rehearsing a presentation, with my eyes closed in a kind of meditative place, and when I reached the end I was surprised when a woman stepped out of the darkness in front of me. She was faceless, but had curly blonde hair that was pulled back at the top and had an attractive physique, too. Her only words to me were, “Okay, are you ready to get to work?”
I closed my notes, stuck them under my arm, held my other arm out for her to grasp and we walked off into the darkness. I came out of the meditation wondering if it was real. A month and a half later she showed up at my door after a fairly lengthy interaction from replying to a personal ad I had on AOL. Suffice it to say that she ignited my life in ways I had not experienced to date. It took nearly a year for us to cohabitate after a wild series of events in 2001, not the least of which was the WTC towers coming down. By the end of September I was living in her home with her teenage children, who weren’t prepared for having a man enter their home.
The following years were filled with magical situations that I’m sure seemed right out of a story book, including multiple metaphysical encounters that would have had most people running for cover. We began our relationship, by choice, on the foundation of faith, love and trust. We both had perspectives on life that allowed us to experience reality beyond the normal daily travails of the largely unconscious society in which we live. We are both highly intelligent people, gifted by educational or intellectual standards. We’re able to grasp concepts of both science and spirituality that stretch most folks beyond their comfort zone.
That being said, a few years later there was a rift in the force. Robin decided the ‘story’ needed a new twist and went back into the 9-5 realm of practical positions and regular paychecks. I completely understand why as it is an extreme challenge for folks to live on the fringe in faith, love and trust when they have a mortgage payment due. That’s just the reality of this world. We had the opportunity to move forward with some other things that were closer to our collective heart, but the mental constraints just weren’t going to let it flow.
Now that brings me to the point that came up this morning. It may seem abstract and yet relative to the concept of ‘flow’ in the process of life. There is, according to a lot of sources, a level of reality that is tied in to what one might call a soul-level experience. Now in this soul-level experience there is harmonic that resides within each person who is engaged in a lifestyle that holds the spiritual purpose or divine destiny at its root. This is a foundation that simply ‘is’ within the construct of reality as we know it. I’m sure there are many conflicting stories to this point, but for now I’m going with the potential of this soul-level experience being one that is running the show for most, if not all, of us.
When the choice to shift focus happens there is a change in the ‘force’ of the path of each and both simultaneously. The fact that we were such good friends and amicable people meant that it would take some time for things to work through and we’d have a number of bumps in the road as the reality of our eventual disengagement evolved toward our waking consciousness. We enjoyed each other, so it was quite some time before the incongruent energy of our collective reality surfaced to the point of being obvious to both of us. It may sound incredulous, but we really do get along well regardless of our relationship status. We are inherently curious and non-judgmental.
As we peered deeper into the nature of our reality it appeared that our current situation is unfolding just as we designed it. The consciousness of our intention to grow included doing the ‘work’ of understanding how relationships really work and being able to converse about it openly. I found that, over time, I was able to articulate some very deep levels of emotional perturbations as well as the view of soul-level foundation that presented a much clearer and unfiltered potential reality. We both realize that it’s just conversation, but it is a very powerful conversation nevertheless.
In the year we’ve taken to extricate ourselves (we’re not done yet) the process has allowed us to see things in ways that most people never have the opportunity to view. Too often relationships are torn asunder by uncontrollable emotional fits and/or separation anxiety that don’t allow one to think or behave in a rational way. Fear destroys rationality. Our ability to continue to perceive life through the faith, love and trust lens continues to offer wonderful insights and realizations that we share with each other, in conversations and often write about in our blogs or on-going drafts of the next book. Both of us are prolific thinkers and writers, so we process emotions and other considerations in many ways beyond the simple and straightforward responses that often accompany break ups.
I’m grateful for the opportunity to continue the work, even at a distance. What we also discussed was the possibility that even though the story has changed for us personally at this time, the long-term story continues in our ability to allow the Divine to interact with us on increasingly intimate levels. This notion led into a short discussion about how the harmonics of creation bring certain aspects of people, places and things together in order to increase the capacity for harmony to evolve within humanity. It is an ongoing process that presents us with the opportunity to see things beyond being ‘good’ or ‘bad’ … rather just how it ‘is’ in the moment without emotion.
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